Years ago my precious friend Eddie was killed by a drunk driver. He had a beautiful wife and four young children. He had been ripped away from them suddenly and tragically. And Eddie had been ripped away from me.
When Eddie died I absolutely believed and had full faith that he was now in the loving arms of God. I knew that Eddie loved Jesus. Eddie trusted and followed Jesus as his Savior and Lord. Eddie lived out his faith in such gentle and powerful, humble and compassionate ways. When Eddie died I absolutely believed and had full faith that the Lord would intimately care for and provide for his beautiful family. I absolutely believed and had full faith that my God is sovereign and loving. Even in this devastating loss.
This was, and is, my determined faith in the One True God. And it was, and is, only through the intimate love of God that I have any faith at all.
But that’s not how I felt at that painful time. Even though my faith was not shaken, my heart was completely broken.
Sometimes we have to let our feelings catch up with our faith.
Our Lord will hold us and tenderly love us with His compassion and mercy throughout every moment of that catch up time. God did this for me. I know God will do this for you.
Be merciful to me, LORD, for I am in distress; my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and my body with grief. – Psalm 31:9
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD. – Lamentations 3:22-26
How loving and good is our Holy God! He holds us and comforts us with His great love, compassion and faithfulness. In the everlasting arms of our Heavenly Abba, we can rest and cry, breathe and be strengthened while our loving Lord tenderly and faithfully heals us and helps our feelings catch up with our faith.