I am absolutely convinced that God is able to fully heal and restore any life and completely transform each of us by the renewing of our minds. What I am not so convinced of is our own desire to let God do His powerful work in us according to His Way.
God had to really challenge me to truly look inside myself and decide not just if I believed God could heal my heart after so much emotional and physical abuse, but I had to decide if I truly wanted God to heal my heart!
One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, He asked him, “Do you want to get well?” John 5:5-6
Personal Reflections from Sylane: Oh, my! God used this passage of Scripture sharply–and through an in-my-face-because-God-loves-me way to show me that there was something still in me that was refusing to fully want God’s power instead of my self-pity. Ouch!!
God’s Word (and Tim’s very brave challenge to me, when married only one year: “Do you want to be happy?”) was used in powerful and freeing ways to move me from being a victim–an emotional-spiritual invalid–to being more than a conqueror through Him who loved me. (Romans 8:37)
I have a choice. I always have a choice.
I have to, first, honestly answer: Do I want to be well? My answer is, “Yes!”
Then I need to answer: Do I trust God to make me well? Again, my answer is “Yes!”
So, now the question is: HOW do I get this healing?
Well, first of all, it certainly is not by relying on any of my old practices or personal resources to make me feel better. Nothing the invalid did over those 38 years moved him any closer to healing. He could no longer rely on any of his ways or his plans. He had to want to get well and be willing to do it God’s way.
This was true for me. We each have to be willing to let God intervene and interrupt our patterns so we can take on His ways of thinking and acting.
The question: Do you want to get well? Is really asking us if we are willing to let go of all our tendencies to think and speak, act and live as an emotional-spiritual cripple.
God’s Word and God’s Love provides all the healing we could ever want! When we do it God’s Way!
There is a reason God is God and we are not.
Well, actually there are several, but a major reason is that God is always working all things out for the good of those who love Him and have been called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28).
We, on the other hand, are often so darn busy blaming others or stuck in destructive self-pity or self-focused sin that we keep getting in the way–getting in God’s Loving Way–for bringing about the true healing and freedom into our lives that we claim we want.
God wants the best for us. In every way. In every circumstance. And God’s best will come into our lives as we yield our pride, our self-pity and our perspective to the Truth of God.
Because the truth is, God wants to make us well.
I want what God wants for me on this one! So, LORD, show me Your Way to get me well and keep me well–every step of the way.
In love, peace and purposeful passion, Sylane